Haven't been blogging a lot.Nothing much to type as well.

Recently I was looking through my list of friends on Facebook and I just clicked on one of my close friends who I have not kept in touch for a while now.I was suprised to see that his relationship status had changed.Although I was shocked,I felt that it was inappropriate to just ask him such an sensitive issue.

A few days later,I decided to pay him a visit and it was coincidental that he was around as I was about to set off.I just asked him about what happened and he told me brief details of why he and his girl wanted to part ways.

What surprised me was that these two people were the most beautiful couple I have ever seen.They were so close and loving towards.The few times I saw them together,it was like they were in their own world.Being happy and glowing,metaphorically speaking.Yet,even such a love was not meant to be.Even though they have parted ways they still remained as friends.

When I think about it,I am reminded about my own situation about my own friend.Many times I wished that I would be able to have that kind of happiness, my friend and his partner shared, with him.

I felt that kind of feeling once.I guess one could say it was long ago because the wait makes it feel longer.Both of us revealed our feelings for each other and my feelings for him were much stronger than his feelings for me were.Eventually I think he realised that I may not be the one he loved.Yet he tried to maintain our friendship that we had before while I tried to make him find the feelings he had for me.Slowly,things changed and I felt the distance between our friendship widen.

I decided for a break for the both of us and decided that we should try and talk about it after a few months.I lost the one person I loved most because of my selfish actions.

Not a day goes by without thinking of him.I did try to contact him.I kept on trying to meet up with him to explain why I did what I did.Eventually,I realised that he already made up his mind.Of course I do love him and I believe that whatever reason he has for not seeing me or his current feelings towards me,I have to let it go and respect his wishes.All that is left to do I say to say goodbye.

Slowly,as I think about my friend and his partner.I see that no matter how much two people love each other,they may not be together.

Whatever feelings I had for him in the past and whatever I want to say then,I guess it does not mean anything anymore at this time.However sad it may be, I hope that both of us will find happiness and be happy for each other.

We had reach the point where saying things like 'I miss you' does not have that much significance already.Still,I want to say it to him.





I miss you.

Crimsom flew pass at 1:17 AM